Found love in a graveyard.

[vergoldung]

Dearly Departed. I'm broken hearted.

So, Memorial!
I just finished watching the episode with my sis and it's almost three in the morning (my time where did it go?), so quickly.

Overall I really enjoyed this episode. There were annoying things, but most of them were executed well enough for me to bite down my bile. Well done show. And as the episode went on I was merely reduced to two kinds of emoting :
1) OMG CAROLINE/ELENA OMG OMG NEVER STOP THIS. ALL THE FEELS. I never thought they'd give me that, so I think that magnified the beauty of it all. IT WAS FUCKING FLAWLESS.
2) DALARIC DALARIC DALARIC DALARIC DALARIC DALARIC EVERYTHING HURTS

Basically. It's funny that these are both things I was sure I wasn't going to get. My faith in the writers is lower than ever, apparently. But nonetheless, I was loudly yelping. (My pain is grand, what can I say.)


Other things :
- the Damon/Elena/feeding scene creeped me out, like a lot. DNW HAIR PETTING. SQUICKED ME SO HARD. LIKE, PLEASE STOP THIS IS HURTING MY EYES. It's really unaesthetical and just no no no. Don't touch her haaaair! I don't care if you're desperate, D, this is not okayyy.
- Stefan shouldn't be aloud to use words at this point. IDK but I feel like I could deal with him so much better if he was silent? (But maybe that's just me being optimism...)
- Elena's face trumps all. GOD THE THINGS SHE MAKES ME FEEL. Dobrev is queen.
- I weep for Bonnie. And her unacknowledge mom. And her twice killed grandmother. Ughh, Stefan, you have no right to play friends. Go away. WHERE ARE BONNIE'S FRIENDS FFS! (Also when is she finally going to see Elena on camera? Seriously. This is way overdue.)
- the blood vomiting was A+

But yeaah.
THEY GAVE MY BABY A GRAVE. AND THERE WAS BOURBON. AND I DIDN'T EVEN LISTEN TO A WORD COMING OUT OF DAMON'S MOUTH BECAUSE I WAS TOO BUSY SOBBING. MY EMOTIONS. MY EMOTIONS YOU GUYS. I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR THIS. ALSO THE SCENE AT THE BAR? THIS CHAIR IS TAKEN? THE ~ALTERNATIVE IS JUST TOO FUCKING DEPRESSING???? MY HEART MY HEART. AND THEN HE JUST MOVES IT FROM THE BAR TO THE GRAVEYARD AND WHINES ABOUT HIS LIFE LIKE A CLASS-A PRINCESS. AND REALLY, I WOULD WATCH THIS MORBID SHOW. I WOULD AND IT'S PATHETIC BECAUSE I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF WHAT HE SAID WAS ENTERTAINING SINCE I DIDN'T BOTHER LISTENING. BUT WHY WOULD I WHEN IT'S NOT ABOUT THE WORDS BUT THE VOICE (WHATEVER WHATEVER I SAY AWFUL THINGS LIKE THAT SOMETIMES /DEEP DOWN I AM SAPPY). UGH. NOW I HAVE TO DO THE MOURNING ALL OVER AGAIN. GOD. DON'T DO THAT TO ME, SHOW. I AM A FRAGILE THING.

/enough already

Comments

[ever-neutral.livejournal.com]

It's really unaesthetical and just no no no. Don't touch her haaaair! I don't care if you're desperate, D, this is not okayyy.
LOL GET OVER IT. Everyone has hair.

Stefan shouldn't be aloud to use words at this point. IDK but I feel like I could deal with him so much better if he was silent?
Bwaha, I loved how much of a blatant tool Stefan was in this episode? Every word that came out of his mouth was complete nonsense and for once, I feel like the show was aware of that.

AND THEN HE JUST MOVES IT FROM THE BAR TO THE GRAVEYARD AND WHINES ABOUT HIS LIFE LIKE A CLASS-A PRINCESS.
Amazing.

[vergoldung.livejournal.com]

LOL GET OVER IT. Everyone has hair.

LOLOLOL. OH HOW I WISH I COUL GET OVER HAIR. FOREVER OBSESSED AND OBSESSIVE. It's crazy actually that this scene is that much squickier to me because it's her hair that he touches without permission. I am worried by this realization. My issues are weird.

Agreed on all things Stefan. He was perfectly IC. I still want him to shut up.

[gehirnstuerm.livejournal.com]

Aw, the last scene... *sob* Need to rewatch. Damon, you poor psychotic serial-killer bb. You break my heart way to often. And RIC! I think I died a little when he appeared, with this sad little smile, just listening.

Oh, you have a hair squick? What is it, hair in general or people touching other people's hair?

[vergoldung.livejournal.com]

I think I died a little when he appeared, with this sad little smile, just listening.
Basically.


LOL. I am actually a hair-fanatic. I love hair more than it's healthy. So nope, no squick there, especially considering how gorgeous Nina's hair is. But the hair-petting... Yeah, that was the problem.

I just explained this to another friend of mine, so I have a lot of words on the subject :

So. THE HAIR PETTING. #forever alone

This is a case of overidentification squick. So it's fairly random, except not. (Ahem, my intense hair-feelings.)

One of my fears in real life (hence the fandom/fiction squick) are people beingsexually abused/used without knowing it. For personal reasons, I am extremely sensitive to this and it's to the point where I'm actually more squicked by this kind of attacking (that doesn't always has to be a conscious thing for the abuser, mind you) than by straight up abuse. Not that I think that the ~clear abuse is less bad or hurtful or wrong. I don't. It makes me just as sad. But I feel less ~dirty (by ~procuration) watching it because it's that much easier to call the abuser out and for the victim to know that this is not his/her fault. It's a case of abuse compartalization, if that makes any sense to you. The perversion of not knowing you are being used/abused makes it impossible to blame and therefore to consider yourself as anything less than a willing party. And for me that hits uncomfortably close to home. (This is actually why I don't go near the Damon/Caroline abuse--I know I'm not able to handle looking at it.) So yeah, I overproject...

But the thing is, I might not have been as sensitive to the squickiness of the scene (I'm not saying that I can't appreciate it on a narrative level tho) if it hadn't been her hair he was petting. Like if it had been her cheek, I think it would have bothered me, but less viscerally. Again, overidentification and all that jazz. I absolutely hate when people touch my hair. Especially if they do so without permission. I'm greatly offended by that, because of how (unhealthily) attached I am to my hair--which makes it a very intimate part of my body to me. There are extremely few instances where I will be okay/happy with people spontaneously touching my hair (I'm not talking about hair-styling or whatever that might have been agreed upon before it happens). When I am crying and it's my mother. When I am cuddling and I feel completely in tune with the person (and that happens all the time, obvs). Otherwise? DO NOT WANT. If you wanted a comparison, people touching my hair without me agreeing to it is similar to people touching my butt just because. I'm not opposed to it per se, and I might even enjoy it coughgreatlyactually in the proper circumstances (me=willing). But like that? No no no no. Stop it right now, I hate you, you need to die. I HAZ ISSUES WHAT CAN I TELL YOU.

So yeah the hair-petting was highly distracting to me (and a constant reminder of manipulative/perverse factor) throughout. And for all of Damon's hilarious O-faces and Elena's beautiful agressivity, I could not enjoy this scene at all. Maybe I'll come around to it, but I'm not sure. Even the gifs squick me. Oh, well.

[ancholia.livejournal.com]

Ah ah, I see I'm not the only who cried during the cementary scene. I think I'll never forgive the writers for having killed Alaric. I ship Delena but the friendship between Damon and Alaric was for important to me! So, yeah... *cries*

Otherwise, I liked the feeding scene, a lot, Damon's face... :O
And I agree with you, Stefan shut the fuck off!!! I can't, it's only the second episode and I'm already sick of him. i really dislike the scene when he accuses Elena of lying and she ends up crying. Not cool!!!!

And I don't why I wrote all this in english, lol.

[vergoldung.livejournal.com]

Heeee, English!

Yup, everything you say. Damon and Alaric, Damon/Alaric. I will never be over them. *clutches*

Agreed on that Stefan/Elena scene, except that I liked it on a narrative scale? Like, I hate that my babe Elena has to go through this (again! argh), but I thought it was perfectly in character on both parts. It also helped that the framing was completely unromantic and clearly made this out to be what it was--which is abusive. If the show keeps this up, I might be able to deal. Still, Stefan should stop with words.

[ancholia.livejournal.com]

It also helped that the framing was completely unromantic and clearly made this out to be what it was--which is abusive.
It was! Stefan clearly was a dick in this scene but I saw so many time Stefan's actions being excused that I don't know what to think of it.
It also unnerved me that he was the one to comfort Bonnie because to me, it should have been Caroline or Elena or even Jeremy but not Stefan! Argh, I feel like Saint Stefan is somehow back...

What did you think of the new characters? I liked April but I'm not sure what to think of Connor... I wish he wouldn't have reveal his hand so soon.

[vergoldung.livejournal.com]

It also unnerved me that he was the one to comfort Bonnie because to me, it should have been Caroline or Elena or even Jeremy but not Stefan!
THIS SO MUCH. But the writers hate Bonnie with a passion :'(

I liked April too, but in a non-passionate sort of way. I'm curious to see more of her though. I found Connor to be pretty entertaining and I'm hoping that Jeremy gets a storyline out of this ;)

[ancholia.livejournal.com]

I found Connor to be pretty entertaining and I'm hoping that Jeremy gets a storyline out of this ;)

I think that's what the writers plan to do. We'll see what happens.

By the way, did Elena was 'cannibale" enough in this episode for you? :P

[vergoldung.livejournal.com]

Yep, loved it! It was beautiful. All the blood and gore <3